I had been sick several months went to several hospitals always sent me home nothing wrong with me my daddy was in the hospital dying 2016 I went to hospital in ambulance I couldn’t walk they were going to send me home my husband said I’m on my way don’t sign anything then when he got there he told them wat I been going through you send my wife home she’s going to die thank god my husband spoke up I was hiv+ didn’t know where I got it we were always loyal to each other but I remembered I had several blood transfusions one in 1999 and one in 2016 they put me in icu I had aids and was dying my cd4 was 25 and I had cryptococcal meningitis I was on several ivs and oral meds I stayed in hospital for 3 weeks

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Well I got lucky because my husband's love never faltered..

I mean he was on hand fir both the diagnosis of Poz then decided to take it upon himself to be the one who informed me " baby you have Aids " once I had come far enuf thru dementia to understand the words I was being told .

Now as to being weak well that did not happen until I saw the back of his body ro see the blood pooled in his calves ( my education waz enuf to see such a sign to know lavidity had occured hours before because when the heart stops blood is going to pool in the lowest point of the body ........

When they had the body in the bag on the stretcher taking it away then I got truly weak .

I guess my body deciddx then was the right time to feel week because due to the lavidity that told me he must have died between 11:45 and midnight becausw at that time he was fussing at me about going to sleep with the tv on .

The last words we spoke to each other was " I love you " and upon realizing those were our last words my.body suddenly decided to go limp as a dish rag ..

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I hear ya big time .

I knew when I found my husband's stiff ( rigor infused ) body that I had to do the right thing so held it all together and made the appropate fone calls to get the wheels turning .

I thought hell I can mourn later because right now you have to be strong to get things in order.

Until after the casket was lowered into the ground and I was back home with our fur babies to comfort me did I shed a tear .

Well that moment was definitely fleeting because then came the daily calls from the mortgage company wanting to know when I was going to be out of our home of 30 years .

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Good morning I feel weak when I was going through my crisis finding about my diagnosis my mother's death my mental breakdown overall it just made me stronger and every day I'm learning something different to stay strong to not let people think that they could talk to me any kind of way and I don't stand up a lessons are to make you either weak or strong you you have to fight for what you want to be yours.