I deal with a lot of illness also but i had to really get invovled more in my medical care read up on what they say my illness are what they do then find other things i can do to make them better talk them over with my provider and talk to other peers to see what they can help me find be truthful with mt mental health doctor about my feeling and work though the feeling they will come but but we have to learn coping skills to deal with life change our mine sit is our biggest problem

I give it to God in prayer and I live my best life through faith in my Lord Jesus Christ. He is the burden bearer. I do all I can to take care of myself and no longer worry about it. I'm POZ, learned I have diabetes in 2015 but its controlled and I found out in 2016 that I have another condition. I consult with my doctors. Exercise. Eat a vegan diet. Pray. Enjoy my life family friends travel and just live it up. I get out of myself by helping others. No pity party. God did not create us for that but to get out of the house and out of our minds and get out and bless others . We have gifts and talents we must use. We also need to live under Thanksgiving and gratitude for what the Lord has given us. He is our life hope and strength. Blessings to you!

I get what you are saying and feeling. I'm in the same boat, lots of complications from having HIV so long and the meds. Plus PTSD and anxiety issues. The problem for me is having chronic depression and HIV. Even though I'm in therapy, on antidepressant and anti anxiety meds, I still have thoughts of just living in peace instead of fighting each day. But I try to live day to day. Are you depressed, and if so, it should be addressed with a therapist who gets HIV. Best wishes to you.

I suggest getting in a support group so you have a chance bear your soul & receive positive feedback.

Love you guys. My heart goes out. Thank you for sharing. I believe that things are going to go well with you. Maintain supports and take one day at a time. We have all made mistakes but we learned from them and hopefully progressed away from those mistakes
Blessings in abundance to you all