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Did You Just Want To Died After You Found Out You Had Virus Or Just Want To Scream Real Loud Hit Stuff ,or Get High On Drugs Or Drinks ?

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Oakland, CA
April 1, 2023
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Members opened up about the devastating emotional aftermath of their HIV diagnosis, with many describing initial feelings of wanting to die,... Read more

Members opened up about the devastating emotional aftermath of their HIV diagnosis, with many describing initial feelings of wanting to die, intense anger at partners who infected them, turning to alcohol or drugs to numb the pain, and experiencing deep isolation as friends and family walked away. Several members shared how they moved through that darkness over time, with some finding stability through therapy, sobriety, consistent medication adherence, and self-acceptance, now celebrating decades of healthy living as proof that an HIV diagnosis is not a death sentence. A recurring theme was the transformative power of simply surviving, as many who once felt hopeless now stand as living testaments of resilience, urging others to hold on and keep fighting.

A myHIVteam Member

I took the news very well was not surprised at all. Months later I started making my funeral arrangements I bought a grave site and started making payments on the casket that was 21 years ago I sold it all I'm not ready to die yet.

April 1, 2023
A myHIVteam Member

Dave283 glad you Mark my question here .Here is a hug

April 4, 2023
A myHIVteam Member

Dave283 thanks for hug here is hug for you

April 5, 2023
A myHIVteam Member

I was stabbed at a accident with 4 syringes all had blood in them hospital told me the man died had AIDS i was tested started medication already had a weak immune system 6 months later i had full blown aids lost my job on the fire department and they told everyone. I was mad as hell did a lot of drinking my house was tared family and friends walked away yes i wanted to die 29 years later still here still married new friends new family now the medications are slowly killing me. Wife and step kids still by my side

April 2, 2023 (edited)
A myHIVteam Member

Absolutely, I was diagnosed about 3 weeks after my boyfriend left me. He was very promiscuous with males and females, no protection, yada yada. I was filled with soul crushing depression, I did want to live, but I felt like everyone would reject me, judge me, etc. I was also terrified about any sort of infection, I still am but not as bad. And I've always been a drug abuser, so I couldn't get high enough to dull the hurt. I'm better now, gave up the IV drugs, on meds for depression, and in therapy. Hope this helps

April 2, 2023

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