Dating.

A personal relationship. I want to find someone and fall in love again, but I want someone who will love me for me. Been a widow for 23urs going on 24. Met so.eone who was HIV negative. He accepted my status and was wonderful in the beginning, but he change and starting making me feel less than. He critical and the he talked down to me made me feel bad. So we are just friends now, and strangely he is as nice as rain on a hot summer day. He wants to get back with me but I made it clear we will never be more than friends.I am not perfect or maybe not even 95% okay, but I have not done anything but be good, and nice to him the best way I knew how, and I don't deserve to me mistreated. He didn't accept me for me. I realized I do better be with just me at this time.

I'm not putting anything on hold. I want to try new things and if I put them on hold they might not get done.

No I live by the old saying live today as if it is your last and as if I am going to live forever. At 64 my holding pattern is over, now on Juluca and feeling great, finally I can use that word, I am tackling live hard with a determined spirit of love, first fo myself and then everyone else, some I don't like , or associate with but I still love them. I no longer hold hurt of others for it only was hurting me and God knows that was a very big step in going from existing to "Living", lovin each day, giving thanks and recognizing what I do have and not concentrating on what I don't! I no realize it is up to me and I have to stop stinking thinking and be aware of all the beauty and good around me and more importantly in me

what life? i dont do much anymore