I after getting the news that I was poz avoided the subject whenever it came up by changing the subject .

Then along came the diagnosis if Aids and my disappearance from the public eye because of the concussion and ensuing bout with Aids related dementia / Aids dementia complex .

When I finally got back into the public eye I once again began my regime of avoidance when the topic arose .

Then came the time when I was in a contest and there was a speech portion that I had not prepared for so blurted out that " I have Aids but am undectable " .

Well when I heard my own words comming back to ne thru the speakers I knew there was no turning back .

My 90 second speech kind of went into 10 minutes of amazement by the masses therein .

But when I held my head high and was proud that I had grabbed the shroud of stigma and flung it around there was a defining round of applause .

My next " regular checkup ( az if there's a dam thing regular about me :) ! ) upon my telling my id pcp what I had done heard " that might be why some of my patients have become verbal about their health instead of making me pull teeth to find out what was going on with them " .

So apparently my holding my head high and outing myself started a " comming out movement / trend to where folks were no longer be afraid / skeered to admit their status publicly .....

So it is true that it takes just one voice to start the wheels in motion :) .

I go to support groups to hear other people stories and a lot of people been dealing with with it the 80s medication. I’m coming a long way. I’m lucky that I only had to take one pill a day. I do look back on how I get infected. I can’t change it, but you do make me think more positive that I’m going to be don’t give up, but I know who infecting me this times that I want to confront a person but what good would that do when the damage is already done I let God handle that part.

Strong emotionally charge situation/events can cause the response of PTSD. Emotions are a response in general to those events. Difference between a good response and a bad response is perception of the event. Even in the most traumatic of even growth is possible. One thing I lean that has helped me is that I am not a victim of my circumstances, I am a survivor of them and therefore even if at ti.es it may be hard and complicated I must muster perseverance and move on and not be stuck in the past letting those events dominate my life. Forgiveness is a very powerful tool in those situation because I do not want the pain that was cause by someone else control my life. I want to be free from that pain. In the end kindness is stronger that hate.

I have a forehead thermometer I take temperatures before you come in our house if sick you don’t come in if you can’t see me as I am idc I don’t need you