Sex literally disguist me rnš
@A myHIVteam Member i was diagnosed last May and was put on my med in July. I was undetectable by the middle of August. I think it all depends on your med, body, etc. Iām still learning and trying to accept. But i refuse to become detectable or sick and really really really hate my husband even more than i do now. Peace and blessings beloved
I completely went the other way after I became undetectable. I was scared for a year and then I dated and had awkward sex. After I found my ex-bf my sexual drive came back and intimacy was amazing. Now I enjoy it šÆ but Iām also plagued with people in my life that just want sex and not intimacy. Itās draining. Iāve made a choice to love myself and say no to sexual advances and invest time on someone thatās willing to know me (my emotions, thoughts, personality) first before anything else. Itās been a learning curve that took a toll on my mental health. Iām feeling better and somewhat empowered as I cut off all these unhealthy relationships from my life.
@A myHIVteam Member
Your youth will bless you with more bedroom activity on this new journey.
Patience and self care along with taking your meds and ultimately becoming undetectable is where you want to be when you are ready.
Everyone has their own timeline. I haven't totally given up on having intimacy because like you I really enjoyed doing it and still have some hope. Aloha babe you've still got the looks!
Right after being diagnosed, I went to the boyfriends house to tell him. After hours of comforting each other, we spent more time comforting each other in the bedroom. Sex was always 100! Now recently breakinb up and walking forward in my journey of self-love and worth, Im terrified of going without! Sex was my favorite, escape, expressing myself and love.... praying that I do not contact him or him me. Needed time alone with self and God, time to get my healing and start this journey of meds. (Scared!) Miss the bedroom ohhhhh soooo much. Self love baby!
@A myHIVteam Member Iām trying to strategically get out of this marriage as we speak. I canāt wait to say āex husbandā but as i told him in our last argument. āEvery time i take this stupid a** pill i think of you so it doesnāt matter if youāre here or not... you will always be an unfortunate part of my lifeā and we havenāt quite been the same since š¤·š½āāļø