I also see a psychiatrist and we talk. Doing so at my discretion helps. Nevertheless I love my life. I’m here now; God has a plan for me and I won’t let this HIV hat weigh me down.
Stay strong #blessings

Thanks but no, depression is unmistakable. I have always lived with anxiety but depression literally stops you in your tracks.

I have been on almost every anti-depressant, anti-psychotic, and mood stabilizers that exist going back to 2001. After 12 years of mostly unnecessary, wasteful, and boring therapy I freed myself of an old dude charging my insurance $475 for 50 minutes! I have been taking control of my bipolar situation and accept it - luckily it is almost always mania but I live everyday knowing that depression, and really deep depression, can occur anytime. Sometimes the depression and mania are mixed. Well about 5 years ago I started on Cymbalta which was then halved but I also take Lamictal, a mood stabilizer. I stopped the anti-psychotic, Risperdal because it caused sexual problems: actually they ALL do and often weight gain too. I really hate taking these drugs but I am literally afraid of living without emotional balance. Yesterday I got super excited over out of control tupperware! Worked myself up! Got angry at my poor 96 year old Mom who had messed upo dinner, and then in a devil-may-care attitude, swallowed 4 Ativan. This is all bad advice! But I hadn't written in a while. I am a high school teacher, currently online which is a trip unto itself, and have survived through my own devices: the HIV part is not the hard part. It is the struggle for reasonable mental health.

Yeah thats what i need right now overthinking too much and feeling super low

Been on Zoloft a few months now. It really has helped me NOT feel sooo down. I'm a 'recovering overthinker', too, and this med has helped that heavy weight feeling.
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