if your undetectable there is no point to worry, you pretty much stay that way til you die of old afe if you take your meds daily,
i dont let it bother me, it's gonna be what it's gonna be, but though after half your life you lean to just except it what ever it may be
I expect to be undetectable and my viral load will remain 1200 or above, I settle for nothing less. And I dont worry as it never changes the outcome of anything
Since my hiv+ diagnoses, I have always been hopeful for better results each time. I've been fortunate to have my cd4 count up and my last labs six months ago were1147cd4 & undetectable.
I expected no change two weeks ago, but they dropped to 874 cd4 and detectable.
My doc and are having the test redone to see if these numbers we're correct.
I'm hopeful the new results will be better.
To you RazDochez , I wish you calmness and health in 2018
Your viral load and t cell count will level off after awhile, you don't and won't expect your numbers to be too much different. But would not stay up at night worrying about your numbers. Relax, read a book, read regularly, go running, that's what I do, I also lift weights as well, join a gym, or not, go running or walking in your own. Find a part-time job. Talk with people, go to the lgbtq center and play games with other clients. Join a support group, these ideas will help the anxiety , wouldn't hurt to also be on some good medication that might help your anxiety, and depression. As well as your cocktail, and I don't mean alcohol. Good luck keep in touch.